I feel like a bad mom, and that makes me so sad.

Brandi - posted on 07/13/2013 ( no moms have responded yet )

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I went on goole and punched in "Am I a bad mom" I was immediatly drawn to this site, after reading a related post. I recently left my relationship, because our unhappiness was being felt by our kids. It was a very unhealthy relationship, that was unsalvagable. I am seeing a change in my girls, (5,6) they are acting out often. When I made it clear that I was not going to be with him anymore, he stopped interacting with my children. I cant bare hurting them anymore, so I say "Daddy is at work" He will deliberatly drive by 5-10 times a day...making me feel like a mouse in a cage, yet it has nothing to do with the kids. I have been keeping them in my kingsized bed for so long, that they dont want to vacate. I overcompensate with treats because I feel bad. I love my kids so much, and am doing my best with a terrible situation. I get frustrated and overwhelmed with day-to-day happenings, making everyone feel miserable. I constantly tell my girls that I love them, give them hugs and kisses, and backrubs. I reassure them that I will take care of them always, and that I love them so so much. I am so angry inside, wanting to tell them exactly what their father is all about...but still have to soften the blow of his absense by reassuring them that daddy is sick right now and needs to get better. He is the worst of the worst that I have had the pleasure of knowing. I dont feel comfortable giving him access to have my girls without supervision, I have not for some time. All of this, the drop in income, no support financially from daddy, the heartbreak of how long the whole nightmare went on, and the task ahead-putting my family back together. I realize how much effort, patience and time it is gonna take, and hope I can draw the strength for whats ahead. thanks for reading. :)

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