Amanda - posted on 10/11/2016 ( 2 moms have responded )
My husband and I planned our first child, and things really didn't go as expected.
I did everything they recommend before getting pregnant, taking prenatal vitamins, eating healthy, and exercising. I work in a fast pace industry so I was always active. Not overweight, and perfectly healthy. I was rarely ever sick, a good weight for my height, and already ate well. I did like sweets and things so I simply cut back on them when we starting trying to have a baby.
My pregnancy was great, I did gain a ton of weight though. I went from 100 lbs to 180 on the day they admitted me for delivery. They put my due date at the end of March - 1st of April.
The last week of February I suddenly started having horrible back pain. All my checkups were fine up till then, so I assumed it was from all the weight I had gained. I went to bed that night, and woke up with the pain still so I decided to go to the doctor. I was told I had HELLP syndrome ( I had no idea how bad it was until after the whole ordeal). my platelets were around 30k which is very low, and protein in my urine, but I don't think my blood pressure was high. And I wasn't at risk of preeclampsia beforehand. I was admitted to the hospital Saturday morning and gave birth to my daughter Monday night. My platelets were constantly going up to a safe level and then dropping again so I had to give birth naturally. C-section was not an option at all.
She was born early, but she was perfectly healthy thank god. I spent a week in the hospital recovering. my platelets took a long time to go back up, and my body was extremely weak from the whole ordeal. I got home a week later, and 4 hours home I was back in the hospital with Pneumonia. That was another week in ICU especially since I also had the flu on top of it all. We already have 2 kids (not by me) so this is our 3rd, but my first. I found out that HELLP was hereditary with me, and honestly I didn't know how risky it was for mothers and babies. I also didn't know I was on the high risk side of the scale.
My daughter is about 8 months now, and I'm constantly afraid that something bad will happen to me if I get pregnant again. I am back on the pill, but I'm so scared that if I try to have another baby she could lose me in the process. I have been thinking of getting my tubes tied. I just don't know how risky that process is, and what goes into the procedure. I just want to be around for her always, so whenever I have an intimate moment I'm scared of going through all that again.
I know if I do it she will be the only child I have, and there will be no turning back. Will going through will it get rid of the constant fear I seem to have with this happening again?