Alice - posted on 03/06/2014 ( 43 moms have responded )
I'm currently 3 months along and hate being pregnant. I hate this thing inside of me. I hate my husband for doing this to me. I've stopped believing in God and want to have an abortion so bad i can't stand it.
I never wanted children, I don't want this thing that has disrupted my life and causes me immense pain every day. I no longer enjoy sex, I can't sleep, I don't want to eat. All I want to do is get rid of it. I lay awake at night staring at my ever growing stomach thinking of ways to abort it without anyone knowing.
I hate that muly husband doesn't have to give anything up. He doesn't have to feel any pain, lose sleep, give up his body, or support a leech he doesn't want. Babies gross me out and I don't see them as miracles.
I just my body back. I want my life back. I want it just to be me and my dog again. I don't even want my husband any more. I know this isn't normal. I know I'm totally screwed up in the head. I'm so afraod of will happen. I hate this thing so much I can't stand it. I dream of ways to abandon it and even kill it. I'm a pshycopath and a terrible person. Why would anyone want to harm a little baby, or be resentful towards something that I've create? What is wrong with me.