Marissa - posted on 09/03/2013 ( 10 moms have responded )
I'm 17 years old. My depression started 1 month before I delivered. It's gotten worse. I gave my baby away to my sister. I want to keep him but I don't have a place to stay if I do. I'm living with my father but he hates my son and won't let him in the house. I don't have a car or job. I have nothing to offer him. I cry all the time. He won't call me mom or tell me he loves me as he grows up. I feel so alone. None of my family or friends understand what I'm going through. My sister tries but she doesn't get it. She got to keep her son. I didn't. I miss him so much. I want to hold him and kiss him but I can't. I'm so attached to him. I have to keep my distance from him though. It's taking such a toll on my body. I've lost more than 5 pounds since I've delivered him and that was a week ago. I can't eat, sleep or even get motivated to do anything. I don't want to see or talk to people because they ask about him and it makes me more sad. I'm at home with my father and step mother and I just don't feel welcome. I feel so alone.