Pamalla - posted on 01/24/2013 ( 3 moms have responded )
I am 5 1/2 Months Pregnant with my second child. I was SO happy and giddy with my first. I just can't get happy about this one. I know part of it is I didn't really want to have another kid.
No matter what I try I can't get happy. I know I would be devastated if something happened that I lost it.I was heart broken and scared when they couldn't find a heart beat (it was too early).
Why can't I be happy and glowing? I hate myself and start crying when I think about it. I thought when I saw the ultra sound and heard the heart beat it would change but it hasn't. I feel horrible. I am also scared that this might turn into sever post-pardum. I can get happyish but not about the baby. I can laugh at a funny joke but I can't BE happy, Does that make since?
I can't afford to see a counselor right now so I thought I might try to get some support from some other moms that might have gone through the same thing.
My hubby is great but he just doesn't understand. He just tells me, "Its okay, Your just pregnant. Its hormones. You'll be fine when the baby comes." I don't know but it just doesn't seem good enough. ( I kinda just want to punch him in the face when he says it.) He's just trying to help but like I said he doesn't understand fully and I have tried to explain it. It sounds pathetic when I say it out loud. And when I type it.
Please Someone, Anyone Help.