I lost my youngest to Sids

Melody - posted on 05/20/2015 ( 2 moms have responded )




My baby was born Nov.19,2012 and on February 20,2015 we laid down to sleep only for me to wake at 930 am the next morning to find her dead body beside me....I tried so hard to bring her back I kept trying from the moment i found her till I got to medical attention only for them to tell me her heart had already stopped beating. She was a healthy 2 year old I blame myself even tho i was told her autopsy came back saying there was no sign of suffer-cation or anything poisoness in her blood stream she went in her sleep .....Makes me think if i was up earlier maybe i could of woke her before she fell into her endless sleep ....i have nightmares and thoughts of that dreadful day almost everyday a play for play of the moment i woke to were they told me her heart stopped beating I want to be with her so bad but I have an older daughter that i don't want to leave alone i feel like i'm being ripped in two my world has been divided i'm trying to cope with this never ending pain but its hard just leaves me in the blank wondering why....


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Raye - posted on 05/20/2015




What happened was not your fault. You need to be strong for yourself and your other daughter. It was a terrible thing to have to live through, and Amber is right, you probably need grief counseling. Replaying the situation in your mind won't change anything. Nothing can bring her back, so you have to focus on what's happening in your life now. Your older daughter may also be grieving in her own way, and maybe you both can help each other.

Amber - posted on 05/20/2015




Im so sorry. No parent should ever have to deal with what you're going through! I don't mean to offend you, but have you tried counseling? That might help a great deal with coping with this.(Hugs)

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