Christen - posted on 08/05/2012 ( 2 moms have responded )
I have a stable relationship with my parents and friends, but my parents desperately want me to finish college (I'm a sophomore) and get settled as quickly and painlessly as possible, and my friends are extremely religious so I'm nervous for their reaction. The other problem is the boy who's the father (my age) is my ex and we've had a pretty horrible relationship. My family hates him and my friends don't approve of us ever being together. He's not a bad person, I do still have feelings for him, and I know he would be supportive, but I really feel like we'd both be better off moving on from each other. It was a mistake seeing him a few weeks ago, but now I have to deal with the consequences and I'm freaking out a bit. I'm overwhelmed- I could never abort or give my child up for adoption, but I so desperately want him/her to have a financially stable life with two parents and I can't see me being able to offer that if I give birth this early in my life. I don't want to disappoint my family, and as much as I'm sure they'd love my child I really think they would love it more if I graduated and didn't have to care for another person at such a young age. I also don't want my ex to have another reason to be in my life. I don't know how to feel! I'm so confused. I know I would be a great mom, but I absolutely do not have my life together enough for this to happen. I know I made the choice and I understand this was a possible consequence I was signing up for, but is it selfish to wish I could still go back to school and carry on with my life? How do I tell my parents? Any words of advice??