Tiffany - posted on 04/19/2016 ( 10 moms have responded )
I've dealt with severe depression my whole life. I am a single mom of two boys. Their father is no longer in the picture their grandparents either have drug and alcohol problems I have no support. My ex who was very manipulative convinced me to drop out of school when I got pregnant and be a stay at home mom while he worked. After almost four years he and I decided to have another child (he had been pushing for a while) three week's after our second child was born he bolted.. I was jobless with two kids to support and nearly became homeless. I hate my life so much I don't have a job still because I keep losing daycare I don't have a car we,walk everywhere. I can barley afford the room I rent from my mother who is constantly drinking I have no other family support on either side and I want to kill myself. I love my kids they're great and I get constant compliments on them. But I don't connect with them I hate being around them but I force it. And I get so angry all the time and yell I'm a horrible mom I'm a horrible person for not wanting my kids..