Abigail - posted on 05/13/2013 ( 13 moms have responded )
I have always had issues with my moods and feelings, my ex partner has had three children with other women since iv had his daughter, i tried for years to trust him and accept the past but he is just abusive an manipulative so after five years of listening to his crap it started getting physical, he has in the past done some seriously bad things to me (forced himself on me when id been asleep, numerous times telling me i deserved it)i decided i cant take any more. you would think that would be enough to keep him out my life but i seem to keep making the same mistake of trying to make him want to be a part of my daughters life as i never had a dad. an im back to square one he thinks i want him. i will never trust him or any one again. i have always had mood swings and i go from one minute being so happy nothing matters to feeling so worthless and useless i feel my kids be better of without me, i am so worried if tell my doctor the truth i will be putting my children at risk of being taken away, and now trhey are my only reason to live. i know i need help to get better but i would not be able to go on with out my two little girls. how can i tell doctors?