Amie - posted on 08/21/2016 ( 9 moms have responded )
Ok so let me start at the beginning... I have 2 beautiful daughters that are now 3 and 5. I had a perfect baby boy in January 2015. Our family was complete. My girls came from a previous marriage, and my new husband and I wanted to have a child together. I desperately wanted a boy. He was born perfectly healthy and never had any medical issues. On May 13, 2015, my husband came home from a class and found baby boy passed away. I was home the entire time!! He was taking his nap and I had began to fix a bottle for him. My husband came running out of the bedroom with him and I instantly started CPR. I continued until first responders got there. They tried for over an hour, but my baby was gone. Baby boy passed away from SIDS. Our hearts were shattered. We decided that we wanted to have another baby. I felt like I should still be breastfeeding and caring for a baby. It's very difficult to explain. We absolutely know that we will never be able to "replace" him. There will never be another Torin. Anyway, I had my tubes tied when I had Torin. He completed our family. I have seen fertility doctors and they told me that I am a good candidate for a reversal. The catch is that it will cost us $5000 out of pocket up front. We do not have that kind of money. We are trying to move out of our house as it is. Anyway, I have been praying nonstop for God to somehow let me have another child. My periods have always been reliable to the day. I am now a week late. I took 2 pregnancy tests this morning. One was faint positive and the other was negative. I don't know what to do. I don't really want to tell my husband until I know for sure. I don't want him to give his hopes up. Please help me. I pray that I am, but I am scared that I'm not.