Jessica - posted on 02/05/2014 ( 3 moms have responded )
I have two boys 1 and a half and 2 and a half, and I am a stay at home mom. We just moved to a new state where I know absolutely no one, I dont get any time away from my kids because we dont have the money for daycare and my husband works from 8 to 88.i have many stressors I feel like I am the only one worried about such as money and bills and then doctors want to say my oldest is autistic because he hasnt started talking yet. My kids are of course being kids but what gets to me is that they feed off my stress and are acting out because of it. They refuse to listen and time outs arent working anymore. I get so angry I will yell at them to knock it off and when I do that they start crying. I apologize afterwards because I never mean it but then once they feel better they are at it again. I have spanked due to the oldest deliberately doing things he shouldnt but when it happens when I am already angry I am scared it will go further. It never has but I just dont know what to do anymore. I give myself a timeout to walk away, everytime crying so hard because I just dont know what to do anymore. O know I need a break but I have no family or friends to help. Any social life I have is talking on the phone and that just isnt enough. Can anyone help with ideas about my anger and how I can control it better. Or know of something I could ask my doctor to maybe subscribe to help me. I dont want to hurt my kids ever but I am worried if I dont get this anger under control that one day I might spank too hard :'( please help me any advice.