CHELSEA - posted on 06/09/2016 ( 1 mom has responded )
I recently have been just mentally fried I was young when I had my children and I never got to socialize or go out and now that I finally am mentally in a place where I want friends and want to do things I have two toddlers. I love them more than life but at this point I don't feel i'm any good for them when were home alone I cant interact with them the way I want. Im creaming for a different way. Some days I just want to take off. I feel like the worst person in the world for even thinking this way. I really need some help even though Im sure ill get nasty comments trust me id leave em if i were you I feel horrible about this. I never had friends or did thing sand now that Im closing in on thirty Im freaking out that I didnt get that time there are things I want and need to do mentally. I dont know what to do anymore. I have all theese thing inside me that just want to bust out like hiking or painting things ive never done. Im scared to tell anyone because I know my family will not understand and will probably hate me. I dont blame them I hate myself!!! I love my kids but I'm not good for them with where I am mentally.