Audrey - posted on 07/21/2012 ( 11 moms have responded )
I am almost 10 weeks pregnant, thought I was a bit further along but according to the ultrasound I'm not. Any-who.
Ever since the first day finding out that I'm pregnant my ex and I have been fighting HORRIBLY! There comes times when everything seems fine, we laugh, joke and plan our future as parents. Then he has a fit and everything changes.
He was PRO abortion, I am not. In return this initiated our first big fight, which ended up in physical confrontation. Cops called, ect. Since then we have been fine for the most part. Our newest problem is his jealously and I'm starting to think he has bi-polar disorder.
We are NO LONGER together, I'm not out dating or screwing other guys. That would just be wrong, I'm pregnant for Gods sake. But I went out shopping with a much younger friend of mine, he's male. I did not offer this information up to the Ex and he flipped out. Claims I'm "fucking around" and being a "nasty whore, slut, bitch" I let that go. And tried to move past it.
Tonight we got into a huge argument about him calling me a whore. He claims the child is NOT his, yet he is going to take me to court and have me rights revoked as a mother and take the child away from me. What I don't understand is, if it's not your child what right do you have trying to do anything? For one, he cannot prove that I'm an unfit mother, I'm not raising a child yet. I'm not working until August, I'm in college and I'm doing everything right prenatal wise. How am I unfit? Seeing as how I'm 20 and "poor" and he's 25 and comes from money he thinks that he has the right to degrade me and threaten me.
The conversation tonight consisted of these such things.
"Listen here you stupid whore, I've been fucking around on you. Have been. I never loved you. Never cared. The child is NOT mine. You have a horrible track record (which he would know nothing about) and you've fucked around which means it's not mine. (I never slept with anyone during our relationship) I'm taking the child away from you, you po'dunk trailer trash whore. (I'm a middle class civilian who lives in a 5 bedroom home in a pretty decent area) Goes on to tell me how I cannot keep things out of my mouth, that I'll never see my child, and If I was pregnant I would regret ever speaking to him the way I do. I can't even cry anymore. I've grown numb to his words to an extent. I just want to scream though! I want to haul off and punch him in the throat. What the hell do I do?!?! How do I handle this emotional distress. I'd block his number but he contacts me from other numbers when I do that. I'm stuck!!
After all is said and done he claims he is going to kill himself, that I'm the only one he loves and wants to be with. That he never slept with anyone else, ect. How he is jealous of me. Because I'm kind hearted, beautiful, beyond intelligent, ect. And he knows I can do better. I mean seriously, is this not bi-polar behavior? Am I completely in the wrong for not wanting him around anymore? I do love him, I do care, but I'm tired of the heartache and dispair.. Am I wrong?