Kali - posted on 09/18/2013 ( 3 moms have responded )
Let me apologize first, I'm sorry. I was excited about having a 3rd child, our first 2 are ages 7 & 9 - both girls, but when I went for my ultrasound I found out that I was having another girl. I cried uncontrollably. I prayed and thought long and hard about having another baby, because I was determined that I wasn't. But, my husband wanted a son so bad (you can see it in his eyes) - so I tried. He's fine with a 3rd girl and now he just wishes for a healthy baby. He's also angry at me because he's afraid I won't love this child like our first 2. Me, on the other hand, I wish I would have never tried and stuck to my 2 girls that I already have. I wanted something different. A 4th try is out of the question for fear of having yet another girl. I'm now stressed, wishing I would have never gotten pregnant, and can't wait until this is over with. I do not want a baby shower for this one because I'm not happy about it, we will buy her what she needs. The news of the gender has truly turned my life around. My next 20 weeks are going to be miserable. I can't even think of girl names, because a girl wasn't a thought for me. I feel guilty feeling this way, any advice will do.