Im such a bored pregnant house girlfriend, with a 15month old baby

Trinity1986 - posted on 09/12/2012 ( no moms have responded yet )

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Im such a bored pregnant house girlfriend, with a 15month old baby, we go to playgroup etc but its like ive been copped up for so long i dont know how to communicate with new people. I dont have anyone to visit anymore and no one visits me, as all my friends have left so its like its just me and my wee girl, My partner comes home from work just before 7pm he doesnt understand, and its not a romantic relationship, he comes home, has tea, and he'll catch up on his facebook games or go to his mums...i get invited but pretty much get ignored the whole time, i just feel like im losing all confidence, i cant wait for this baby to be born so i have my body back at least... i feel like i need to get pretty again, to be noticed, i use to always be noticed! it sounds vain, but im only 25 im always wondering if my partner just has me here because he was ready to settle with any woman, didnt matter who she was, i use to be so much fun, had lots of friends, dates, admires, now its like everything is gone! and my partner is a great father but its like everything children is left for me to do, he can up and go as he pleases but i always feel i have to ask to even go for a walk... like is it okay if you look after our child while i go for a walk, please check on her, please play with her, and then i feel guilty for leaving! If i wasnt pregnant and so tired i would be trying to get a job, although im worried about putting my child in day care as i feel bad leaving her with strangers, i know this is such a depressing post, just getting really down, like im losing myself, sometimes i want to just leave my partner just so im single and can have a new love come in so i have a bit of excitment and those great feelings of feeling alive when you meet someone new, ive suggested this to my partner, well the me leaving part... and its like he makes out that i will feel the same without him, i do love him, i just want attention...maybe, i want people to want to hang out with me, i feel caught but i dont feel like im a catch..anymore... i use to be... my car is a tin can..stops every 5 seconds and my partner suggests we will get me a better one but it never happens... we dont have much spare money left over payday and shopping, bills etc im losing my pretty, even when i make the biggest effort to look pretty for my partner he just doesnt notice ever! ever!!! i dont even know if people moan about their lives on here so im probably embarrassing myself but thought i could maybe have a vent, if anyone has any advice or wants to tell me to shut up please do! i need it :)

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