Fernanda - posted on 09/09/2013 ( 4 moms have responded )
My son's father was very abusive towards me. Verbally mote then physical. The last week I was at our house, he sht the gas and power off on me and the baby. so we were forced to leave. He had no idea where we were going and didn't speak to me for 3 weeks. Then he demanded to see the baby. we met at a playground and the next day he blew up my facebook telling me how much he missed me and how it was for him to stay away from me. So i blocked him. I told him that the next time he wanted to see the baby he had to go to my parents house and be supervised. another month went by and i find out he's back with his other baby momma. It broke my heart because no matter what he did to me, he still was the love of my life. I just knew i deserved better then him. According to him he's changed and he's not even wanting me at this point, he just wants to be a part of the babys life. Now all these thoughts are coming back to me about how careless he was towards me and the baby that last week we were together. It took him this long to see the baby, why should i let him in his life? and also hes a huge pot smoker. this was a big problem when we were together. i came home from work one time and he was smoking next to the baby. It kills me that him, such a horrible person is doing so good now with his new girl, and im stuck thinking about this ALL THE TIME. and it also kills me that everyone sees him as "the good guy that cant see his baby because she wont let him" I just wish people really knew. And I wish i could move on with my life and my baby, This is just horrible. Any advice as in how to let him go? should i let him see the baby?