Dolc - posted on 06/05/2013 ( 2 moms have responded )
I have a lot to be thankful for, happy marriage, beautiful son, great family. I recently lost our second child at 11weeks. It was almost 3 months ago now. as much as I believe I'm over it, I believe miscarriage is for a reason, that baby was not ment to be. I've also noticed I've changed. I feel angry, I'm pushing friends away. I've felt I have had good reason as some have not been supportive.... but also I don't want to be around pregnant woman off new borns. I'm angry at myself cause I keep gaining weight and I'm no longer pregnant. I'm angry at myself for being grumpy/pushing husband way.... I really just hate the world and hate myself right now. only thing I don't hate is my aamazing son! no idea how woman cope losing their first child, must be so so hard to make it through.