Cindy - posted on 06/08/2011 ( 8 moms have responded )
I lost my son a 1 & 1/2 months ago, he was 14months old. I got to experience his 1st year and then some. He had a cold that lasted for about a week and the pediatrician said it was an upper respiratory infection and sent us home with some nasal spray and he said he would be better in 3-4 days, well he didn't get better and the day I was going to bring him back the drs office was closed so we went to the er cause he now had a fever that wasn't going down. They diagnosed him with 2 ear infections and gave him antibiotics and we were sent home. Later that night he was fine he went to sleep then all the sudden he didn't want to sleep anymore he was sweating and very weak (saddest moment of my life). We decided to bring him back to the hospital were they admitted him and he wouldn't stop crying, so i held him and held him but still he wouldn't stop crying. His fever finally went away but then he started having seizures and after that I never heard him crying again they put him on an oxygen tube because he was having a hard time breathing, after that everything started to fail, they later told me that his brain was swelling and that's why he wasn't responding to us they decided to give him some medicine and he started to squeeze my hand I thought in my head "YES it's working" but in some weird way I believe that was him just saying goodbye to us. I still have yet to get back any autopsy report so we still don't know what happened. I guess my question is does the feeling ever go away, I miss him so much! How do you feel when you have another child?