Brandie - posted on 02/06/2013 ( 4 moms have responded )
Hello! I am a single mom of a beautiful little girl who is truly the light of my life and I will do anything and everything for her. But I am feeling a little worn down. I had to go back to work when my daughter was 2 weeks old, as my ex would not get a job and we had no income. I have been working steadily since, full time. For the 6 months it was 16+ hours a day as a manager. Now I work 9 hours a day at my day job and pick of shifts at night when my daughter is sleeping at my second job to support her. (I do not get any assistance from her father so the extra money is needed to support her dance classes and daycare) I am also looking at going back to school within the next few months. I spend a lot of time with my daughter still though, during the week days I spend from 5 pm until 7.30 pm with her (when she need to lay down and wind down with a movie, sometimes we cuddle together until the movie is over and she needs to sleep) then I head to my second job while she is sleeping. Weekends we spend the full day together until her bed time, then I go to my second job until 2 to 2.30. I am worried about adding school on because I already spend so much time away from her as it is. But I need to advance my schooling in order to pave a road that will better both of our lives, and I want to teach her that she can do anything she sets her mind on. I also want to make it so that she does have opportunities that I have not been able to have. While I love the time I spend with my child, I'm getting a little beat down. I do not spend "adult" time away from her. I have been asked out by really nice guys, which I've had to decline as I do not have a babysitter and my mom only takes her when she does not feel like going out with her friends (which is not very often). I have been single now for almost 2 and a half years and would like the opportunity to go out and meet new people and see where it goes. Some guys I have meet have offered to take me and my daughter out but at the same time, I worry about her meeting guys, as her father walking out completely devastated her and I don't want her thinking that all guys do is walk away. I am not so much as looking for advice, as venting a little on my life. It can get very lonely on nights when my daughter is sleeping and I do not have to work my second job.
Thanks for taking the time to read my little vent here :) It was much needed to get out! :)