Allison - posted on 01/23/2012 ( 3 moms have responded )
A thousand apologies but I'm pretty upset and don't want to go through all my messages to tell all my supporters what's going on so I'm posting something for everyone.
I submitted a post maybe two weeks ago saying I was 17, pregnant, and scared. Well it still stands true but I have bad news... I'm having a miscarriage. I'll be going to Planned Parenthood tomorrow to abort my pregnancy. I would've loved more than anything to have a baby, a week after I found out I got a job! I was taking great care of myself and things were okay.
But for almost four days in a row now I've been "spotting", cramping, and having sharp abdominal pains. My mother, who was an OBGYN for 15 years told me that in two weeks, if I chose to keep the baby, I'd be in the hospital and my blessing would be gone. :/
I had my first ultra sound today, the baby is 7 weeks old according to that but by the dates of my last period it should be 9.5 weeks so the baby isn't developing right. I've cried for nearly an hour and am crying as I'm typing this for everyone to read. I wish it didn't have to be this way but now I don't have a choice of keeping my little blessing.
For every mother who's reading this please do something for me...
Go hug your kid. Give them a huge kiss on the forehead and tell them how much they mean to you, because I'd give anything to keep my blessing but I can't and now I won't know the feeling of being a mother and sharing such a love.