Susan - posted on 11/04/2013 ( no moms have responded yet )
8 months ago I moved from my home in London to San Francisco. My 2nd husband comes from the SF and after 6 years in London, he decided that he wanted to come back to SF to spend time with his family and especially his father who has CLL. I was totally supportive and fully understood his need. So I left my family home after 22 years and said good bye to my 2 sons, daughter and 3 grandchildren. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but I had no idea just how totally empty I would feel without them. In fact, life without them, seems like no life at all. I feel like I am missing limbs. I do stay in touch via Skype or FT regularly, but it is not in any way the same as meeting for a coffee or getting together for Sunday lunch and a walk by the river. Hearing their troubles and helping with advice. Just recently, saying Happy Birthday over the internet just felt as though I am being robbed of time with them. Has anyone else here had these feelings or it it just me? Sometimes I think I am going mad, especially when I pick up a family picture or find a memory of home and I just crumble.