Sasha - posted on 08/02/2016 ( 2 moms have responded )
Hi everyone. I joined Circle of Moms hoping to get some advice/feedback. I am 26 and I have a 3 year old and 1 1/2 year old. I suffer from severe anxiety and as a result never got my drivers license, so my kids and I never leave the house. My husband works in a city two hours away and is gone all day until about 8pm and uses the only car we have even if I did have my license. We live in a small town with a crappy bus system and we are pretty far away from anything within walking distance. My anxiety prevents me from even getting out because of fear so I don't really have any friends and I have no family where we live. Lately I have just been consumed by guilt because my kids never leave the house, we get out on Saturdays and Sunday's when their dad is off but M-F we are inside 24 hrs a day. I try to have them play in the yard but they get incredibly bored after five minutes. Inside, I try and do crafts and other activities but nothing keeps their attention very long and I know they are just dying to do something out of the house. Sometimes it feels like we are trapped in a prison. I feel so guilty that I should be doing more for them but I just don't know how to go about it. Sometimes even the thought of going for a walk sends me spiraling from anxiety. I am already on anxiety medication and have been trying to do small things with them to overcome my fear but every night I toss and turn from feeling so bad that they are going out of their minds from being so bored. The TV is on all day long and I know I'm not being the best mom I can be. Any suggestions?