Valerie - posted on 12/14/2015 ( 11 moms have responded )
I could use some input on the above subject. I have a grown son, my only child who shows nothing but disrespect for me yet I love him with my everything. I will try to make this short thought it will cut out a lot of important incidents that happened in my life. I am a senior citizen now. I have nothing but my social security pension to live on which is meager at best. I play the numbers once in a while, trying to make ends meet and sometimes I do okay. I got a scratch off for $2,000. Lord knows I could use it because I have no money, but my son, who had been laid off for 6 months and whose unemployment had ended, had no income coming in from anywhere. I could not cash the scratch off in the State where I lived because the government would take it as I had unpaid medical bills. I sent it to my son, mostly to help him with his expenses but also because I needed him to cash it for me. My instructions were to send me $1,200, take $600 for himself and give $50.00 to my granddaughter. The rest they took for taxes. Well I had a hell of a time getting my money back for one thing. When I finally did, it was $200 short and my granddaughter never saw anything. Well I was a approved for an apartment the week after (had I known, I would never have sent him the money as I needed it for deposits, cable, electricity, etc.). He was very nasty when I was trying to get my money, telling me, you think your own son is trying to rob you for that fu&&king little bit of cash (tears). I will send you that whole goddamn check back (I wish he had). Anyway, I am moving next week, two days before Christmas. My social security check will leave me with nothing as I have to pay my move-in expenses, plus December rent (pro rated) and January's as it is due on the 1st and well, I only get one check. I asked my son if he could send me $50.00 so I could get some food as I will be extremely short. He said, "Are you seriously asking me that" after what I have gone through? I was so hurt. Here he got $885 out of the blue that I sent him and this is how he responds to me. He told me I am a very funny person and I have some very funny ways. No wonder nobody likes you (untrue) - tears. He did manage to get a job so I thought even with his problems, $50.00? What causes children (grown men) to treat their mothers this way. I am going through a rough time, had back surgery a year ago next month and can still hardly walk and I am in extreme pain. I have a nasal surgery that went bad 15 years ago and I can hardly breathe and doctors say there isn't much they can do for me, and, it will get worse as I age. I am despondent, near suicidal and just have no quality of life. My son is my everything, and although I know he loves me, why does he treat me so bad? And what do I do? I kind of feel like in order for me to make it, I have to "Let go and Let God"! Christmas is going to be very hard for me to get through. I lost both parents two years ago, I have family in another state and live with my sister now who surprisingly took very good care of me following my back surgery. I know this letter is very convoluted but I am just venting and everything is out of perspective I'm sure. I just need some help in finding a way to cope. I love my son so much, but clearly he doesn't care if I leave this earth tomorrow. Thanks.