Erica - posted on 08/06/2014 ( 1 mom has responded )
It's been 17 days since her attempt by overdosing on her psych meds...she was on life support and in a coma but has since recovered and is getting help. I just feel like the worst mother on the planet. She suffers from a host of mental health conditions and in her mind thought that leaving this world would be better. I can't sleep or eat and I keep expressing to her that very few people come as close to death as she did, but God and my deceased mother had other plans for her to have a second chance. This is the very thing I have been terrified of for 4 years. It seems like nothing I do is good enough. I can't change the past, but I am trying to do everything I can to support and help her. I feel so sad that I can't "fix" her as I'm a nurse...I can't relieve her pain and I've done everything I can, but I'm constantly criticized by my brother who has 3 year old twins and is the perfect parent/family. I just don't know what to do with myself. I have nightmares of seeing her on life support and seeing the look of death in her eyes and skin. I don't know what to do........