Tiffany - posted on 07/05/2013 ( 2 moms have responded )
Just when I thought things couldn't get worse..... The unbelievable occurred!!! My daughter punched my face over and over again during an argument. I just stood there with my hands down because all I could see was my 3-year-old grandson screaming behind her to stop and the fact that she is 5 months pregnant. She did not stop until my husband pulled her off of me.
I have been the only provider for my family (my husband, daughter, her husband, my grandson and myself) and I lost my job after 13 years of employment. My husband has only worked 2.5 years out of our last 22 years of marriage. My daughter has rarely worked even though she earned her diploma and cosmetology license. My son-in-law quit his job 1 week before they got married and has since moved out and separated from my daughter and his son. My daughter is addicted to strong pain pills and smokes cigarettes. She lost her job of 6 months 2 months ago due to being late too many times. My husband lost his job 2 months ago due to being late too many times. I have been looking for a job for the last 8 months and was offered several but then those offers were revoked due to my background check. I just wanted to give you a little background so you could understand the nature of the discussion/argument with my daughter today.
Every day I wake up crying and I go to sleep crying and the only thing keeping me alive is my grandson. We are stuck like glue. We have a bond stronger than I could even explain (long story, maybe another day). I woke up this morning and walked around the house and looked at everyone sleeping and kicking back acting like nothing bad was happening. We all live in a house that we are about to be kicked out of. I have been getting unemployment and we have been getting food stamps. I have also been selling things on ebay and scrapping precious metals and computer parts (believe me when I say I have never been this physical in my entire life!!) but you do what you have to do to survive right? Apparently, not all people think the same way like my daughter and husband. I was asking my daughter how she could not be trying everything possible to help save the roof over our heads and her son's head? I asked her to please petition through the court for the father of her children to support them. Then, it escalated from there and she started verbally abusing me asking me if I got up on the wrong side of the bed "Tiffany" and I pointed at her mouth to stop talking to me like that in my house and that I was sick of it and that she looks down her nose at me and walks all over me and expects me to be the maid, the cook, the babysitter, and the bank just for her own personal use. I was all those things to her for her entire life so why should I expect her not to still expect those things?? Maybe because she is 22, has a 3 year old, is 5 months pregnant and married but now separated. She slid my grandson down the side of her leg and left him standing there as she pushed me across the kitchen up against the brick wall and started whaling on my face full on fist to cheeks, jaw, mouth, etc.... I just stood there because I was in shock and I didn't even see her or feel her hitting me because all I could see was my grandson behind her screaming for her to stop. She did not stop until my husband pulled her off of me. My face is bruised and I think I may have a broken cheekbone or something else going on with my jaw. After she attacked me, she grabbed my grandson and took off to my in-laws who welcomed her with open arms and let her vent about how awful I am all day long. Meanwhile, back at home, all my husband could do was say that I deserved it and asked me how I could hit my daughter with my grandson in her arms and her being 5 months pregnant? I feel so alone, ashamed, disgusted, disappointed, heartbroken, penniless, hopeless and utterly unwilling to breathe one more second. I have no family here (only his family which side with my daughter and my husband) and have been with him for 24 years. I was going to go to the police, I was going to file for divorce, I was going to go to the hospital to make sure nothing is broken in my face but why didn't I do any of those things??? I am so lost and was looking for answers on the internet and found this web site. I am literally hanging on...... no, I am not hanging on anymore. I am a fighter but I just have no more fight in me and just want to be peaceful and never have to worry about taking care of anyone ever again. I lost myself because of my sacrifices for my "family" and I don't know how to find myself again. I know I should leave these negative people behind and move forward because I deserve it but "these people" are the family I built and should be able to trust and love. I cannot trust them and they only love me when I am giving them what they need but who gives me what I need? Do I even need anymore??? I forgot what that felt like.
Sorry for the long post. I could use ANY support at all. I am in a very dark place and I am so scared of what is going to happen next.