Velosh - posted on 01/18/2013 ( 2 moms have responded )
I have been married for two years now and when I found out that I was pregnant ,it was the happiest day of our life. I never wanted anything more as this was all I dreamt of. I gave birth on the 30/10/2012 to an angel, my baby boy was the cutest angel i have ever seen. He was born with no complications. That day I saw him it was like I saw God on earth. Later that night my baby slept and never awoke, he passed away that very night. My life just became a living hell, I wanted my boy so badly. What did I do to deserve this punishment. As days went by I tried to see a positive side but just could not. Two months later I would sit and cry hoping I could fix this. My husband helped me so much through this. Its now 3 months and i awake each morning telling myself that God's plan was different to mine. And he knows whats best. There are days when I am angry with everything and keep asking God what wrong could I have done. I dont know how i will live my life my here. But the one thing I know is I can never forget my angel. People ask me to forget what happend and live , but how can I live with this heavy pain.