Alli - posted on 01/20/2015 ( 1 mom has responded )
I have a daughter from a previous relationship.. I have raised her alone until I met my husband. we have been together 2 years now and married almost 4 months. I quit my job to help him with his new business.. recently we have been unable to afford daycare so I began staying home with my daughter. Now he said that im becoming a hermit so he wants me to get a job. I don't mind working but I have been out of work for so long now .. I am scared of working for someone else. And by him saying that to me it makes me feel like a failure as a wife and a mother. like I don't have the house clean every day and my daughter is 3 and still not potty trained. I know I am failing, I just don't want to fail at a new job too.
Not only that .. a couple months ago we agreed to start trying to conceive because I have really bad reactions to birth control.. after my daughter I got IUD but found out a few months ago it was imbedded in the wall of my uterus. My doctor wont give my oral BC because I have chronic migraines. we decided to get pregnant again and then I would get my tubes tied but I am scared to have a baby with him. I know I will just end up raising that one alone as well. I am really thinking of getting my tubes tied now but my fear is that im only 23 and my daughter is 3 now. I miss her as a baby but I don't think I really want to go through all of that again.
I know that is a couple things in one but im just wondering if anyone else has been through some of the same thoughts as me.