Linda - posted on 01/15/2015 ( 3 moms have responded )
Here I am yet another night of cant sleep with the same though HOW IS MY SON DOING TONIGHT. I find someday's I just cant I have to stop and I cant move. My son is sitting in Jail and when you have no one to talk to you pretty much go crazy. tonight I went on the web to try and find a book on how to deal and found this sight. I know I am not the only one but I feel like I am. My son is a good person kind and sweet got mixed up in drugs not taking so much as selling. Seeing all the money they lose there minds. They think they are untouchable...At least my son did and I guess looking back the signs were there I just didn't want to see them. This has put a stop to my life two years ago
Now, two years have gone by and I am lost. Lucky my son is in a small town jail so its not so bad but its the waiting. Waiting for the end to find out how much and where he is going to spend that time. In his favor except this he has no record... I am told that is a good thing in his favor.
I think its not being able to talk to someone I feel lost. My friends think he is working on the other side of the country. I find I am so upsetting all the time and the weight it has put on me the feeling I cant do enough to make this time easy for him..My daugther says Im crazy to stop but I can't. working a part time job to just have the money to send him and the stuff he needs..AND HE ALWAYS NEEDS...where and when does it stop. Lets not forget the guilt I feel when I can send him money or I send just a little. if anyone out there can share how they have coping with this please please share.