Kat - posted on 02/26/2015 ( 1 mom has responded )
So, my mom has an anger problem. She would never admit it. But this is not the point. I remember very good myself hating my mother. She never apologized afterwards, or admitted she had exaggerated.
Now, I have a 7 year-old son whom I love dearly. For the most part, I do good. I promised myself I would try to be a good mom and a friend to my children. I support him, when no one else does and encourage him to express himself even if it is not something I would choose to do.
My biggest worry is that sometimes I have this anger that I now think my mom had. It lasts for a few seconds and I try to get away from my son, going outside the door or in another room, just to let it go over me. I get caught in a moment sometimes, and this horrible anger gets expressed in a form of screaming. I always apologize to my son, when this happens, as guilt eats me. Even if there is a reason to ground my son, I know my behavior is unacceptable, because I still remember myself as a child.
I have never been in a therapy and hope not to get there soon. I read self-help books and do yoga instead. I am wondering whether this "angry mom" past can really harm my child through me. And I would like to hear from parents with similar past experience.