Jennalyn - posted on 01/15/2015 ( 2 moms have responded )
I'm 30. I had my first child four years ago and last year was blessed with another. I feel like I put a lot of unnessary pressure on myself because my mother is just a heavy influence on my life. I was never good at being organize, structured or routine...try as my mother might have to instill these successful life traits on me. I always thought I would simply one day grow into being "Martha Stewart" and now a few year latter I am shocked to find that I am not any better at keeping things in their place. Parts of me feel like I am doing my kids a disservice because I am not better organized and keep to a predicable routine for all of us to follow. I've had a really hard week. My husband recently got promoted so he's been working a lot of hours. I am full time on the parenting and staying at home which normally is blissful, but my youngest has been voicing his opinon...LOUDLY! And I can't seem to discourage his screaming. I am ending my day now feeling very frazzled, and the house unkempt. I think more then anything I want to end the inner battles I fight with myself and enjoy the outside world as best I can.