Mandy - posted on 11/11/2013 ( 2 moms have responded )
I lost my partner to suicide a year ago, he was the love of my life and I am so lost without him. People tell me that time heals but it has not for me. There were no warning signs as he had never suffered from mental illness so it was a complete shock to me. We did not have children and I just struggle every second of the day to want to live without him. I have all the questions, the what if's and why's and I just feel like I am going mad.I live in the UK and although there are websites and forums there seems to be so much more information and help in the US. I am just so broken and feel that nothing matters without him. I long for him and just can never recover from this. He was my life and I have nothing left now. I have a wonderful family but they cannot fill the hole I have in my heart. The feeling of despair is so overwhelming.......