My son died on October 5th, 2015

Christine - posted on 11/07/2015 ( 2 moms have responded )

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Justin was an alcoholic and also epileptic. He had been drinking for ove 10 yrs. He and I had gone to docs, shrinks, educated ourselves, hell, he was the poster boy for what not to do if you have epilepsy. He would go out and drink heavily , and 90% chance he would have a seizure the next day. He would wake up in emergency rooms going why am I here? someone found him passed out in a street somewhere. He would almost always lose conscienceness. I kicked him out at about 19 or 20. He went to live with his father, my ex. The ex continued to enable him. I tried and tried to talk the ex into quitting over and over month after month. Justin was sober between 2006 and 2008 and he was so healthy and wonderful. after he started up again in 2008 he was worse. the exs parents died in 2013 and had lived 2 doors away. the ex allowed my son to live there un attended for the last two years, and that was a big part of the ending for Justin. He didnt have to work or pay for anything, and the ex bought his beer and pot and paid all the bills. my son loved to party, he lived to party. and had a free party pad to do it in 24/7. I had just been over to the exs house 3 weeks before Justin dies ripping him a new one, again, stop buying the beer. stop !!! You are going to find him dead . he was out of control. the last couple of months, flipping out on me when he was around me and I knew how bad he was getting. anyway the ex had not heard from him for over 24 hours and finally for the first time, went into the house he owns and paid for, and used his key, and found my son dead, and stiff it had been over 12 hours for sure. O Lord. I am so angry. so ripped off. I am so sad. Justin was the only family member I got along with, at least up until the last couple of years when he was just too far gone to deal with. I am so let down by my ex, and he admits he is a f up, and he is to blame, and i was right, and he should have listened to me bla bla bla. its just awful Justin was 32 and I over and over offered to pay to get him into treatment, just anything. but no way. he loved partying and thats that. one of his friends told me that Justin loved to party- He knew how well he was taken care of- he really loved doing what he was doing- and he died doing it.

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Christine - posted on 11/07/2015

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thank you so much sarah. I have great faith in God, and I know he is holding my hand and holding my head up. it is all so very sad and lonely. I am going to a support group and that helps a little. i swim laps 4 times a week and keeping up with that. so taking care of myself, allowing myself to cry and break down when i need to, and the rest, well a day at a time.

Sarah - posted on 11/07/2015

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Christine, I am so very sorry for the loss of your son. Alcoholism is a terrible disease. There won't be much to relive your pain but at least you did what you could. My thought and prayers are with you!

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