R. - posted on 09/27/2014 ( 6 moms have responded )
I am the mother of a 23 year old son. He was once the apple of my eye. My son now goes in and out of jail or prison for stealing food . He was just released for prison yesterday . I have not seen nor heard from him. He hates me some much that he told me i kidnapped him from a hospital at birth. This story is long my son and i don't get alone . I put him out of the house several years ago . Due to his drug use , him being very disrespectful and he would not attend school. My problem with him started in eighth grade. He went to jail for having a air pistol . I quest i should mention that i was a single parent with him all of his life. I gave him everything he live a life of a rich kid . I tried to make up for his DEAD BEAT FATHER absence. However my time and work was wasted . I have allowed my son the power to shame me, degrade my name and i feel like some where i failed as his mother . I blame myself for my son being on drugs and homeless . i often question myself wondering where did i go wrong. I am often sad and angry , i beat myself up daily. I am staring to get ill and take more medication than i have every taken in my life. The pain is so hard to put in words and sometimes i feel like no one cares or understand.