Deb - posted on 09/08/2014 ( no moms have responded yet )
I'm still in shock. And starting to feel a lot of rage. I lost my son when he was around 14. Once a very happy-go-lucky, funny, outspoken little boy changed.
I noticed a drastic change in his personality he was depressed, moody... I did ask him all the time why he was so sad. He lost interest in school, his friends changed, activities , sports.. He was afraid to tell because he felt I would get mad, not be happy... I had been alone for many years and then met and had this person move in! That breaks my heart!!!
It makes me physically Ill to think that I had invited a monster into our home..
I really haven't had time to process it all..
My son has been an alcoholic, drug user.. Until recently.. He stopped using and the memories started surfacing... My 28 year old 6'7" son bawled like a baby in my arms, with me bawling in unison.. He drove 200 miles to tell me, we spent the morning talking... We haven't talked this frequently since he was 14... He has had night terrors too and had a hard time sleeping without substance... He has been restfully sleeping the past few nights..
I am sooo angry at the per extractor, equally as angry at myself for not seeing and protecting! I begged my sons forgiveness and told him not to feel guilty for being so angry at me...
Pray for us as we heal, and face these traumas...