Jessyka - posted on 02/14/2016 ( 2 moms have responded )
I carried my son for 21 weeks and 3 days, It was a Great wonderful experience that I will cherish for the rest of my life. Hunter was my miracle baby, I didnt know if i get pregnant due to my past experience, and my bf and i conceived Hunter after 5 years around my bf birthday. I had a very tough pregnancy due to the pain of the fibriods growing and due my surroundings but i didnt let that get away. I LOVED every doctor appoinmtment, It was amazing hearing his heartbeat each time of my appointment and him being a shining star, My SHINING ROCK STAR at the sonogram appointments. He passed away on 01/10/2016, That same day i went to the hospital due to pain i was having a some spotting the doctor said i wasnt having any contractions, pain was coming from my fibroids,and spotting was from the doctors checking me the day before that week i went to the hospital since Thursday the day i went home i had a talk iwith my bf a hour later i felt like i used to use the bathroom and there Hunter was coming out of me legs first I cried so hard called for my bf he ran across the street to the church to get help my son was coming out of me i was giving birth the ambulance took for every to arrive two people from the church helped me my son was still breathing but he was so small since he was 21 weeks he was 10 inches. MY Son passes away i heard his heart beat the same day before i left md hospital n it was good and strong i saw him on the sonogram full of life he was doing great, So i was hurt shocked all the above when this happend to me 2 hours after i came back home from the hospital. THE DOCTORS AT john Hopkins tried but he couldnt make it due to his size I held my son all night all day even when i was on the stretcher from pushing the placata out. Hunter Is my son, My angel who I always would love , he is truly my first love I talk to him everyday morning night during the day I miss carrying my boy, BUT i have and know I have to live it gods hands he blessed me this far to carry him n hold him now his a little angel my angel Baby Hunter. Everyday im thinking how can seek the state to bury him i want my son ashes, I need for his cremation i Pray everyday about it days have passed sinc ehis passing n only thing i can do is keep my head up, pray and know that god has everything.