LJ In So - posted on 09/22/2014 ( no moms have responded yet )
Well, it is Monday. My son decided to start packing it up for UCLA today. He has had since May but there is finally a pile of boxes and technology ready to go. I have been in a holding pattern for about a month but am excited to say that I am driving my son to UCLA on Thursday. I am so happy for him to spread his wings and fly. He is a Regent's scholar and has been hired as an intern for a us senator. Perhaps a future ambassador to China or who knows maybe North Korea!? He's already on his way. At this very moment the tears came but I still will not let my son know how crushed I am. My beautiful son is prepared better than I was. I will do absolutely nothing to make him feel guilty about leaving or sad about the separation. Perhaps I am a martyr, but I just want my son to have a good experience moving on vs. what I went through 30 years ago. I will drive away smiling, and waving goodbye, but then I will pull off the freeway and cry my eyes out. And then I'll drive back home and start the next phase of my life with the walls of his room bare but with my favorite picture of him sitting next to my computer on my desk. After all he is just a text, email or phone call away!