Andrea - posted on 04/02/2012 ( 14 moms have responded )
I am having a really hard time letting go of the anger and resentment I have toward my 13 month old sons father. I spent the enitre 9 months being pregnant trying to make things work with him, but after all of the cheating, lies and him NEVER being supportive it didn't work out. After that he claimed he wanted to be an excellent father and we came up with an "agreement." Ha-well the agreement was never followed through, he does and has bought him diapers and wipes bu that is it and is terribly inconsistent. The minute I found out I was pregnant my life was forever changed and his has not changed one bit. He doesn't pay for him, puts everything before him. He still gets to go to the gym everyday, work normal hours without the worry of childcare, go on vacations, date; basically he does what he wants. The feelings I have are hard to deal with because I received the most amazing gift in the world and my baby boy makes me smile a million times throughout the day, but I have so much anger towards his dad. I don't want to let him see him anymore unless he is consistent, but how do I go about that. Everything is such a struggle and I think any help from him would be nice, but I'm so sick of him coming and going as he pleases. After 2 years, I am ready for my life back. Anger and bitterness weigh too heavy on the heart and I need to be as strong as possible for my little one.