Lindsey - posted on 08/01/2012 ( 3 moms have responded )
Well here is my problem. I have hypothyroidism, and before I got pregnant I was actually losing weight. I got pregnant when I was 18, had the baby 16 days before my 19th birthday, and am now 20 years old with a one year old. My boyfriend has been completely faithful (as far as I know, he's never given me a reason to think otherwise and he's very honest with that) but My self esteem is just past rock bottom. I was doing so good, I weighed about 170 pre pregnancy and now at 5'9 i'm 250 lbs with a one year old. Well I live on the 3rd story of an apartment complex which nearly kills me running up and down those stairs so I REALLY avoid it, and with my boyfriend working nights, he's asleep most of the day, so he can't take me anywhere (I don't have my drivers license since I grew up in a small farm town and then moved to DENVER colorado...scary). And to top it all off, I have had fairly mild social anxiety my whole life. Not bad enough to talk to a doctor about so I never mentioned it. but now with being cooped up inside so much it's gotten MUCH worse, and I'm sure you all heard about the movie theater massacre that happened in aurora co....well I live about 2 to 3 miles away from that movie theater, so that DEFINITELY didn't help my anxiety. I'm scared to leave my house without my boyfriend, but he sleeps all day, I can't lose weight because I don't leave my house, so my self esteem drops, which makes my social anxiety even WORSE which in turn, makes it harder to leave my house. I've tried talking to my doctor about numerous things but since she's a new doctor I had to explain my entire health history to her in one appointment because she wouldn't get the history faxed from my other doctors, so now I swear she thinks I'm a hypochondriac or something so she just blows me off...and because I'm on medicaid my choices for good doctors are VERY limited....I'm just stuck...man I feel so lonely....I have no friends here...I just moved here shortly after getting pregnant and after 2 years of living in this city...I have not met a single friend....I just sit in my apartment watching my son every day...all day....what do I do?!? It's hurting my soul...