Tracy - posted on 02/26/2012 ( 2 moms have responded )
I had my 3rd child two weeks ago. A beautiful, healthy little girl. When I found out I was pregnant I was anything but happy. I told my husband "congratulations, you're going to be a dad of 3". Then I thought the pregnancy was ectopic and felt horrible that I wasn't happy with the pregnancy and I would have to terminate it. Thankfully the pregnancy was not ectopic. Eventually I came to terms with the pregnancy (not happy but not unhappy either). I wasn't happy with the size my belly was. I thought I was too small. She was the most active of all my babies; it was nice to feel her moving around. When I was 4 weeks from delivering I was anxious about when she would come. Would my hubby be home? What would I do with my other 2? Now that she has arrived I'm still not happy. She has jaundice badly and sleeps ALL the time. I have to try wake her every 2 hours for feedings. when she does wake she only feeds off one breast. She seems to tire easily. I want to get out and get exercise but don't want to expose her to germs prior to her 1st vaccinations. I just want to be happy. I love my kids and am glad to have all 3 of them and for them to be healthy. Please help. What is wrong with me? I haven't been happy for the past 9 months. I just want to be happy...and appreciative of the blessings in my life.