Heidi - posted on 01/19/2013 ( 7 moms have responded )
ihave been having a really hard time lately i quit breastfeeding my baby about a month and half ago due to blood pressure issues that lingered after birth. Every since then i have just notice myself become not myself i feel overwhelmed all the time i have a 3 and a 2 year old at home also and my husband works out of town about 2 weeks ago i hit my melt down! i just started bawling in my kitchen and said i can not do this anymore i was frustrated angry yelling at my kids all the time. And i knew that when i didn't even want to be around my kids or anyone that i loved i knew i needed to talk to someone. I have been having super bad panic anxiety attacks one that put me in the er thinking i was having a heart attack. I have been on anti anxiety medecing for about a week now and lexapro which is a mild anti-depressent for 3 days now! i just feel so alone and i just want to know if anyone has been through this i have these horrible thoughts in my head i hug my kids and i just feel so empty i feel like i am going crazy has anyone else been through this and to this extent! my mom is my best friend in the world and i dont even want to be around her either i also am so jittery i feel like i could run a marathon all day and i cant sleep at night cause that is when the anxiety and bad thoughts are at their worst! i just need to know that this medecine will work and i will get better i just want my kids to have their mommy back! i have also had my grandpa die and while we were at his wake my aunt passed away while my uncle was in surgery for throat and tounge cancer not to find out that his has turned terminal i just feel like the world just keeps crashing down and i need help to get back up. I feel like i am LOOSING my mind! any comments will help please!