Jacey - posted on 10/16/2012 ( no moms have responded yet )
I'm 28 years old, and I had a tubal ligation 3 years ago, after the birth of my last son. I made the decision to have it done while I was 8 months pregnant, and very hormonal. After my son was born I became very depressed. My husband and I both just assumed it was baby blues, but it just never got any better. Well, after a year went by I was still very depressed knowing I would never have another child, I cried all the time, and although I was enjoying watching my boys grow, it also made me even sadder that time was passing so quickly, and my baby days were truly over. My husband was certain he didn't want anymore children, so he just didn't understand why I was so sad all the time, so I just kept it inside, and pretended to be ok. Every time I saw someone pregnant or if friends and family had babies, while I was truly happy for them, I had a certain tug at my heart knowing I would never experience it again. I felt like apart of me was missing now. That was the emotional effect, Now onto the physical, I breastfed my son for 1 year, during which time I never had a menstrual period, as was the case with each of my children, so I didn't know I was going to run into problems from my tubal physically. Well, after I got my first cycle, it was really heavy, and really painful. I assumed it was because it had been a while since I had one. Well, then the next month my cycle came, and again it was heavy and painful. I could barely get out of the bed for 5 days. Which is not a good thing when you have 3 children to care for. My periods prior to the tubal were just normal periods, some discomfort, but nothing major. I had a major loss of libido which put a huge strain on my marriage. I have pain leading up to my periods sometimes over a week before. It's like for half of the month, my body is preparing me for my cycle, which means I never feel good. I have recently just heard about Post Tubal Ligation Syndrome, and want to know if anyone else has heard of this or experienced it. I have so much to be thankful for! I know how blessed I am, I just don't know how to get past this point i'm at. I feel like I messed with human nature, and now i'm paying for it. Any advice or shared stories would be greatly appreciated. Thanks, and God bless!