Postpartum depression?

Dee - posted on 02/05/2013 ( 2 moms have responded )

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I've been reading about postpartum depression and wanted insight or advice from anyone who has dealt or is dealing with it.

I am 30 years old and have a 2 1/2 year old and a 3 month old. I thought I was going to be so happy once my son was born, like my first child, but I'm not. It's making me depressed because I am annoyed and angry with him most of the time. I feel like I can't do a anything. I'm not working, so I stay up until 9 - 11 am and sleep my 8-10 hours. I nurse so I wake up every 1 1/2 hours to feed him. Is my disturbed sleep schedule making me feel this way? Or do I have post parturition depression? My son bit my nipple in my sleep and I smacked him because of my reflexes. It was totally not on purpose. But the scary thing is I didn't feel upset I did. Its almost like i felt he deserved it. The fact that it didn't upset me and i felt better, like he ha
d it coming, is what's scaring me. I would feel so guilty if it was my daughter. How could I ever feel that way towards my own child? sometimes cry because I feel like I'm the worst mother ever and cannot believe I am feeling this way. I always thought postpartum depression was an excuse those crazy mothers used to kill their children.

Please so not put any judge mental or hateful comments back - because i Already hate myself enough. Please give me any advice. Thank you in advance.

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Dee - posted on 02/07/2013

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Thank you for replying, Cathy. I asked my in laws for help. They live only 15 minutes away. They ate going to take my toddler 1 night a week, and both children 1 weekend night a week. I hope it works.

Cathi - posted on 02/05/2013

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Post partum depression is very common. Your hormones are unstable and combined with lack of sleep will depress you and make you do things that you wouldn't do had you felt 100% yourself. Those women that kill their children had an entire different diagnose called post-partum pychosys. Do you have someone in the household that could help lighten your load such as making meals cleaning and spending time with your 2 yr old ?? This kind of support system will help you a great deal so you can feel better soon however it may take another 3 to 6 months but everyone is different. Please be patient with yourself better days are not far away in the future.

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