Ashley - posted on 09/23/2012 ( 1 mom has responded )
I believe that I have postpartum OCD. It started when my baby girl was like 3 months old. I was working in a lab and I went crazy thinking that I was going to get someones blood on me and bring it back home to her and that she would catch hep or aids or something. I stopped working at the lab when she was about 6 months old. It still took like 7 months and cleaning my carpet with concentrated lysol before she could even touch the floor in out own home! Well when I did get oer that I thought ok I'm in the clear and everything is going to be ok but then I somehow convinced myself that I probably cought some deadly disease that I would give to her through my blood so she has not touched my face (because of acne if there was any) or any open wound on me since then and she is now almost 2! I am also scared of her touching anyone because all I can think is that they probably touched some open wound on their body or went to the bathroom without washing their hands. Now I have to wash my hands after I touch anything! My new things is the bathroom is the absolute nastiest place in the world even if it was just cleaned. When I use the bathroom I have to wash my hands at least three times. Also I can't touch the underpart of my shirt or the top of my pants because I feel like they are dirty from me going to the bathroom because I have to pull up my pants before washing my hands obviously. I cant turn the water off with my hands because I feel like the faucet must be dirty because I turned it on with dirty hands so I have to use a paper towel or something to turn off the water, even in my own home. If she touches anything that I feel like is dirty I have to immediatly wash her hands. I am driing myself, her, and everyone else crazy!! I see my friends and its like they can jus let this kind of stuff go but I cant. I feel like if she touches something that I feel is dirty then if I dont wash her off then, then she will touch all of her toys and then they will all be dirty and I will have to clean all of them. If anyone has any advice that might help me get over this please share!