Lauren - posted on 11/24/2013 ( 1 mom has responded )
My husband and I have recently started trying to get pregnant with our second child. Although our first is only 13 months, we feel completely ready and I have the "baby fever" bad! I'm a stay at home mom, and raising my children is my life and passion right now. There hasn't been a formal announcement yet, but we've heard through the grapevine that my sister-in-law may be newly pregnant with her 3rd. As much as I know it shouldn't, this makes me extremely jealous and almost depressed. I think what gets me the most is that my SIL works full time and between her job, choir club, adult basketball team, and working out at the gym, her two kids are with childcare as much as they are with her. Meanwhile, I've given up a lot, including a career, to do what I think is best for my kids. I just feel like I deserve to be pregnant more than she does, and it's making me feel horribly. Like someone else got what I should have. I know how I feel right now is petty, judgmental, immature, and selfish. As much as I don't want to feel this way, I can't help it and I can't shake these negative feelings. Any advice or encouragement would be greatly appreciated. I want to feel happy for my family and excited for a new niece of nephew- not depressed and bitter.