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not sure what to do, but I have just given birth 5months ago to my second son and have just found out I'm pregnant. My partner has twin 11 year boys and my son is 3. So between us we have 4 boys. I'm so confused about whether going ahead will cause more stress to our already packed and challenging days, but I often think about the little girl I thought I'd always have but wasn't going to as my last was a boy, perhaps this is it? My parners ex wife is what I would call a nightmare and if it was just my partner and I, I wouldn't think twice about going ahead. I wonder if I would cope with two being so close together in age and my 5month old is so beautiful and calm and peaceful I also wonder how it would be if this one is a crier or has colic or a disability (my sister whom I am her carer and have been for nearly 5years has an intellectual disability, she is about to move out) and the age gap between my siblings will be identicle to my mum's, with my sister born 3rd. My partner is very supportive and quite relaxed about the whole thing but I don't know which way to go and then I think about the guilt of letting a little being go!!!!! urgh what to do?