Kayla - posted on 08/31/2014 ( 2 moms have responded )
I don't even know how to begin. I never wanted kids, but when I met my husband and that ALL CHANGED. I love them to death. They gave me life. Before my kids, I didn't know what joy was. I've always worked full-time and complained that I didn't have enough time with my babies. Well we moved to New Mexico six months ago and now I'm home with them literally 24/7. I'm pregnant with baby #3 and due any say now and I feel like I'm shutting down mentally. I've been yelling so much in such an ugly way. I have no patience left. I feel like a crazy monster. Everything they've been doing annoys me. I get headaches just listening to them PLAY! I've been cussing at them and telling them to leave me alone. Just awful. Ugly. My husband had a 3 day weekend and today he snapped at me and told me to stop yelling at the kids. He was so in shock that he repeated what I was saying and asked me if I realized what I was saying. I didn't. I mean I did but I didn't realize I was speaking to my babies. What's wrong with me? I feel disgusted with myself. Somebody please point me in the right direction. Please tell me I'm not the only one! I love my kids so much!! I could not live without them. What can I do?