Pregnant, home 24/7, new State, two toddles.

Kayla - posted on 08/31/2014 ( 2 moms have responded )

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I don't even know how to begin. I never wanted kids, but when I met my husband and that ALL CHANGED. I love them to death. They gave me life. Before my kids, I didn't know what joy was. I've always worked full-time and complained that I didn't have enough time with my babies. Well we moved to New Mexico six months ago and now I'm home with them literally 24/7. I'm pregnant with baby #3 and due any say now and I feel like I'm shutting down mentally. I've been yelling so much in such an ugly way. I have no patience left. I feel like a crazy monster. Everything they've been doing annoys me. I get headaches just listening to them PLAY! I've been cussing at them and telling them to leave me alone. Just awful. Ugly. My husband had a 3 day weekend and today he snapped at me and told me to stop yelling at the kids. He was so in shock that he repeated what I was saying and asked me if I realized what I was saying. I didn't. I mean I did but I didn't realize I was speaking to my babies. What's wrong with me? I feel disgusted with myself. Somebody please point me in the right direction. Please tell me I'm not the only one! I love my kids so much!! I could not live without them. What can I do?

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Roxy - posted on 09/01/2014

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You are absolutely not alone. Im having very similar issues, except I'm not pregnant. My baby has never slept through the night, or really never more than 3 hours at a time. This means I havent slept in so, so long and im having such a hard time keeping myself together. Sometimes I completely lose it and raise my voice to my daughter waking up 100 times a night. I always feel so guilty, but when I get so overwhelmed, I cant help but scream. My friends stopped talking to me when I got married then pregnant. I dont have family of my own. My marriage is failing, and my husband just told me that everything is my fault, I make him miserable, im the reason he he cant get his life together or get out the door for work, so im why we're suffering financially. He said its all because of my breakdowns at night because the baby won't stay asleep. Im honestly trying my best, so I dont know what to do. Ive never felt more alone. Maybe if you and I talk to each other, we can get through this together.

Jennifer - posted on 08/31/2014

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Your not crazy,welcome to motherhood. I know how you feel. I had a full time job with 3 children my husband also full time job. It was great I'd get off work in enough time for my children to get off the bus. Dinner,homework, bath times it was routine but it was a routine I was used to. Then everything changed I lost my job, and was now home 24/7. I felt overwhelmed like everything was put on me. House cleaning,washing clothes,breakfast, lunch, dinner,bath time, more cleaning and of course trying to take care of my husband after he would get off work. Then I got to where I didn't even want to get out of bed the constant mom,mom,mom, I couldn't take it. I screamed, yelled, cried, even got to the point where I didn't want to do it anymore. Moving to a new place, being a stay at home mom and pregnant. What your feeling is normal but you need someone to talk to someone besides the ones that call you mom. It is very over whelming and its hard. You know you love your children and maybe it took your husband telling you how you sounded to make you realize the words you were speaking. I to have been there and also felt like my husband had the easy way out. He got to leave everyday I didn't. Your hormones are off the chart and you are not the only one. You may need to ask your doctor about post pardon depression it can be very serious but with help and support of others can be easily fixed. I no right now you feel as if you can't take anymore but when you wake up in the morning instead of feeling down try thinking this to shall pass and you are a very needed and important woman whom your children depend on. Do u have a neighbor or a friend close by? Closing your self up is not the answer when you feel that you may be getting angry with your children put them a movie in make a me time enjoy a bath or read a book. One hour or two out the day that you can make for yourself or to just talk to someone can make a big difference. Never think your alone. Hope this was a little helpful. You are a strong and amazing woman your doing what most men or women could ever do.

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