Samantha - posted on 11/11/2015 ( 10 moms have responded )
Hi everyone. I'm new on here. I have an amazing 19 month old little girl who is seriously my world. I love her more than I ever thought I could love someone. I am currently 8 weeks pregnant with baby number two and I'm just finding my fuse is SO short lately. My daughter is very hands on (what toddler isn't?) and lately all she wants is mommy. Sometimes I love it, and other times I just want to curl up and scream/cry/have a meltdown. I'm usually such a calm, level headed person, and this feeling of having no control over my emotions and outbursts has me just feeling guilty and wretched all the time (which consequently only leads to a shorter fuse on my end). I don't mind when she watns to be with me. I'm home with her three days a week and work part time two days a week for about 4-5 hours each day while my mom watches her. The biggest problem I think is that she is right at the cusp of starting to really talk and express herself, however sometimes the communication breaks down which just involves a lot of her screaming NO at the top of her lungs. She has a very short attention span, and has trouble even sitting through a 5 min YouTube video without screaming NO repeatedly until I come to change it to another video (that she ultimately screams NO at 2-5 min later anyway). I'm not proud of plugging her into any type of video, however sometimes the dishes need to be done, or I have to prep dinner, or clean up after her. Basically, the whole point is that ever since becoming pregnant, I just feel like my patience and tolerance has taken a major backseat and I find myself constantly losing my cool. I shout. I cry. Then I feel even worse for not being adult enough to control my emotions, and thus feel even worse. Does anyone have any tips to just stay sane? I want it even more for my daughter than I do me, I just don't want to yell at her. She doesn't deserve it. She's a toddler who is just learning how things go. I feel like the worst mom when I get like that! Can anyone relate? Also, she does Gymboree once a week, and we are looking into part time daycare after she turns 2. But still, I'd love my time with her to be less stressful. I'd like to blame the pregnancy hormones and just chalk it up to it all going away once the baby is born, but it's not like things are going to get any easier after that. I love my kid(s) so much, I just want to do right by them and be a more patient mom when she is acting up. Any advice?