Cassandra - posted on 12/22/2015 ( 5 moms have responded )
I am new. I wanted to reach out for support/ advice. I recently went to the local women's shelter to speak to a legal advocate. Just walking into the place, I became over emotional and started crying as soon as the receptionist asked what I needed. It is all I to do these days is cry. Its the feeling of finally coming to terms with the fact that I am in a domestic violent relationship and I do not want this for me or my 2 year old daughter. I talked with the legal advocate which was actually disappointing. She couldn't give me any legal advice, and proceeded to give me the same info that I found on the web, she sounded very biased and talked a lot about guys who drink and do drugs, which he does neither. I have been with my boyfriend for 5 years. we have a 2 year old daughter together. He has thrown things at me, punched and kicked holes in the walls to our apartments we have lived in. he has gotten physical a handful of times, left bruises twice that I did not get pictures of. I was naïve and thought that I could change him, then I new I couldn't. I thought becoming a father would change him. but it hasn't. My daughter has now witnessed all our fights and arguments and physical altercations. I recently told him how I was feeling, he became very manipulative and kept telling me I was a liar, and that I am the deceitful one, that I will be destroying our family, and that if he had known this was going to happen he would have rather of gotten an abortion when I was pregnant. My emotions are all over the place. I know I am ready to leave, but not financially able to, and I would like to get custody of my daughter. I'm stuck, and I am staying because I have fear holding me back. Fear of what he will do to me or my daughter, and fear of everything that is to come. Just hoping that I can find the courage before anything really bad happens.