Monica - posted on 07/14/2012 ( 3 moms have responded )
Whenever my kids go to their Dad's I feel so alone.
I know I could use that time to get things done around the house but I don't like the quietness. I had children because I wanted children. Now I'm having to share them with a man that didn't even want them in the 1st place. He now has a girlfriend & they pretend that they are 1 big happy family. No I don't want my Ex back! I left him for a reason but it does anger me that he came out of a 15 yr marriage looking like the hero. He never cared about us & was a selfish man. He only did what he wanted, when he wanted. Now I see the kids stressed out. He won't take them anywhere & even makes them walk up the street for him to pick them up so he can avoid coming to the house. His girlfriend is there every weekend & even now bought a puppy which they think is theirs. I feel it is her dig not theirs as my Ex didn't pay for it or cares for it. I know she is trying to get in as she I'd much younger than him. Has never had children but says its ok if she doesn't have any kids cause his children will be hers...what?
I have a boyfriend that lives an hours plane ride away. For financial reasons, we only see eachother once a month so sometimes on those weekends apart & the kids are with my Ex, it's very hard. Life goes on around me where there are Bbq's, dinners out & just activities that you do as a couple. These are the times I wonder if the long distance thing will work. I will tell you that he is the best thing ever. He knows how to respect women & treats me with respect. This is not a fling. We have been dating for 2 yrs now. He did decide that by next May, he will be moving here.
I just want to know how to handle the loneliness & jealousy that I sometimes feel about the life that my Ex gets.