Jodi - posted on 07/14/2016 ( 8 moms have responded )
So defeated and broken not much more i can take. Everything i believed were true has proven to be a stinken lie!! attended a church for around 18 years and really close to pastor and wife like adaughter kind of way. They were there during the first confession and pushed towards forgivenessl. I finally agreed because they know better than I. lots of counseling and dedication from me. 6 years later a boomerang hits!! and yes like a fool i try again why because thats what this church does.
Along with that is his porno crap! OMG 6 years later again I approach his obvious little signs of nasty comeing on and Finally get the courage to leave after cheating multiple times. What a FOOL am I. friends would comment telling him how they wished they had a wife like me!! Boy was I an idiot!
Child victim of being beat and molested from 3 of my moms husbands and survived the streets since 12 along with being a prostitute at 15 with a heroin addiction and refusing to become my mother!! Why because Im tough and can kick your A$$!
None of that choked me out and made me quit but this crap has destroyed me!
Not one church but 2 that I was loyal and dedicated in serving with no complaint rejectedme anddenied me of help when i needed it. WHY??? because I wanted a divorce and they dont condone that! Suddenly im the bad guy quitting? And a terrible mom now? th gradehless and accused of abandoning my family?!!
46 years old have 4 kids ranging from 5-19. have another daughter that is in heaven that would be 24 now. died when 4 years 10 months 3 days. our first born. Loyal to a fault. So much more to this but dont want to bore you..... im done i cant take it